Sniffle, sneeze....

Well, been hard at work in the backyard again. They say keeping busy keeps your mind off things, but I end up doing a lot of thinking. I don't know if there is anything you can do to keep you mind off things unless it engages your mind to think of something else. Yard work, running and bike riding are all great "therapy" for me because it lets me think, try to work through "problems" and because I am busy with a task at hand, it prevents me from still idle and doing something rather unproductive and possibly detrimental.  (I do sometimes wish I could push all the thoughts put of my brain for once and have a peaceful moment.)



 friend posted this today and I thought, how perfect. It's true. I can look backing so many ares of my life and say "wow, that was tough" but you know what, I made it through. I am here today, the person I am because of all I have gone through, and I still think the best is yet to come. So while I am feeling miserable, I just need to remember it's all for the good. I pray for the wisdom, I pray for the strength and I pray for GRACE! Gosh, I am still trying to get my head wrapped around that one.
(seriously, look it up and really study it....it's not easy)

Monday, Monday

Well, my legs finally recovered, so I put them to the test yesterday... Nice 61 mile bike ride with DB, Joe, Ashley, John and Tom. Don't ever be fooled by a flat ride, ever!! It is pure work. There was not one spot where I ever ran out of  "pedal" and could coast. It was all work. The temps were great and the sky was overcast. Perfect break from the hot, humid rides we have been on. We left Owego about 9am going north on 38 all the way to Richford. Pancake flat with a nice headwind....work it baby, work it!!! We stopped at the gas station in Richford to regroup and then headed west of 79. 79 in a nice road, believe it or not. Wide shoulders, smooth, rolling hills....but the headwind was still there. There were times I felt like I was just goin no where, but finally made it to Brooktondale Rd and hung a left, down into the cute town and then took White Church Rd to Coddington. At this point, my knees were strating to talk to me, I was not happy because I wanted to push it. Somewhere on Coddington were ran into our Tour De Cure captain and chit chatted for a few minutes. Then it happened...the shy opened up and the rain came. To this point, we had been riding over some wet roads, but had been very lucky...well, luck ran out. Now, I don't mind riding in the rain, but it was a tad chilly! So, we made it through Candor, our next regroup spot and then through Catatonk...and then it happened... Joe flatted. At this point I am wet, knees hurt, ass hurts and we are a mere 12 miles from the cars...but, got the tire changed and off we go. Fortunately he got a flat right by a place that had an shelter! And the ran stopped, and the sun came out.... Woo Hoo... So, we finished up chilly, but the sun was shining ... Thank you Mr. Sunshine!

Purge and Pain

Well, it has been a fine couple of days! CD mission is 99% complete, thank goodness! I cut down some bushes in the backyard, well, I did have some help. Now I need to get it all picked up and out to the curb by Monday. In the mean time I either have a summer cold or the allergies are kicking my ass! Sneezy, itchy, runny nose and eyes... Ugh!
Today I also cleaned out some of the kitchen cupboards and headed to the basement and went through 3 boxes or so. If it's in a box and not on display as a prized possession, why own it?? I am hoping to be garage sale ready in 2 weeks!
Ashely totally kicked my ass yesterday. I felt fine this morning, but as the day has worn on, I can feel in in the legs...WOW.... I did 1/2 hour work out with her, then we road bikes for 1hr 15 min and then I did my couch to 5k plan for 1/2 hour... Yeah... I got goals... We are purging EVERYTHING, including the chub!!! Thank goodness today was a rest day!
I am also happy, great full, honored, blessed... I have gotten to see Sara a couple times since she has been home!! I am so excited to visit her in February... I secretly wish she was here longer, but I would want to get back to NZ too... She has many reasons to be happy there!
On a side note, I am still finding what makes me happy. I love the process. It is painful at times, and I feel like I take steps backwards... But then there is always a leap forward...and then I smile. One thing is that I don't ever want to pass up the opportunity to tell someone how I feel about them. Or show them how I feel about them. What if it was the last time I every got to see that person? Would they know how I felt? I love all my friends very much. If you are a part of my life, it is because you are important to me. My closest have seen me at my best and my worst... And they still like me :)... My friends are some of the best in the world. I am so blessed!!
G'night all... LOVE YOU!